A discovered attack on my King

 I didn't see that a knight was eclipsing my king from my opponent's queen. When my opponent strategically moved the knight, it was a discovered checkmate on my king. Well, God seems to have given me a checkmate on my life. Sadly I didn't see it coming, so I lost. 

Let me begin with how it all started. Parents want their children to do good in all stages of life. I would wholeheartedly agree with the fact that parents play a pivotal role in shaping the future of their children. My parents wanted me to come first in every class. And so did I. I was happy and so were my parents. They did scold me however so that I could do even better, but I took it positively. I had friends and relatives and my life was going smoothly. Sadly things went from good to worse in the coming years. Our family used to conduct Durga Puja every year. This festival was absolute bliss for me because all my relatives assembled in one place and we spent the best time of our life together for those 5 days. Little did I know that Durga Puja was a slim thread that was endangered of being cut. It got eventually cut when my grandmother passed away while I was in class 6. Due to financial problems, my father no longer conducted Durga Puja. So my relatives no longer assembled. Hence that crucial period of enjoyment disappeared. Still, I had my friends with me. But God had other plans for me. In 2020, schools shut down due to COVID-19 lockdown. This increased the distance between me and my friends, and sadly we no longer share the same relationship as we had before. Lightning strikes twice. The second shot came in the form of increasing difficulty of the class 9 syllabus compared to class 8. My ego of coming first backfired. I did come first but at the expense of my relations. I turned into a robot from then on, neglecting my relatives and friends and just doing my studies. In class 10, I joined FIITJEE. Then I got to know that there is an exam called IOQM. I heard someone getting praised by my teacher for clearing IOQM. So I decided to prepare for IOQM. I did eventually clear in class 12, but it took a lot of hard work from my end. It was my hardest exam to clear till date. It's pretty easy to spell "Hard work" but it's very difficult to implement. Ranking AIR 467 in JEE Adv was not easy for me. I had to put a lot of hard work into that too. Remembering such a huge syllabus, learning college level stuff, analysing mistakes, trying to improve even further. My JEE journey seemed like a perpetual struggle for me- A struggle beyond imagination.

Yes, today I can proudly say "I have cleared JEE, IOQM, NSEP, NSEC, NSEA, OPHO, JBNSTS, SOF and VVM" but I eventually realised that I was checkmated. My parents told me to come first in school exams, but I unnecessarily extended this to National and International exams. My parents couldn't help me with these exams, so I was largely self-directed towards my goal. However, I didn't quite know what my ultimate aim was. My motivation behind clearing these exams was to get respect in society. I wanted to become a popular name and wanted to hear praise from everyone. Now that I have cleared these difficult exams, my expectations didn't match with reality. I didn't have any respect as such from society. People didn't even know whether the exams I cleared even existed or not. I was downstruck. I realised that unless I was not Rabindranath Tagore, I couldn't be famous among common people. A great person is famous in their domain only. We don't know the names of all noble laureates, we only know those about whom we have read in our subject. So where did my "hard work" lead me? Sadly it led me to a kingdom of desolation. I have lost my roots , and have largely become a robot who is only self-centred and not concerned about others. I recall the faces of my school friends, seeing how better their situation is compared to mine. Yes, they haven't cleared any of the prestigious exams that I have cleared still they are happy. They enjoyed their school life, roaming around, playing games, laughing and talking. Yes, they couldn't get into IIT or AIIMS, but how does it even matter? Why did I have so much craze for IIT? Why did I waste 4 years of my life, just to win a brutal rat race? 

I just tried to push my pieces to a better position on the board, but I didn't realise that God was executing plans for checkmate. I want to get out of this situation. I want a rematch. Please, God.